I think that just the fact that you've articulated what you're going through with Nicodemon and posted it on THIS board shows that you have strength and that you are indeed a member of this community. Nicodemon lurks and waits until we are at our weakess. If it's at all possible to recognize some of the early signs of Nicodemon, then we'd all have a head start. In my case, there are things that I will began to do when Nico isn't far behind. For one thing, I'll start staring at the cigarettes on the racks in stores and begin noticing the price of cigarettes on signs at gas stations. That behavior seems to come out of nowhere and sometimes I think I've been subconsciously engaged in the behavior for weeks before Nicodemon will tell me that I can always quit again. That's somewhat of a lie. I first quit in 1986 and started back smoking in 1989. Sure I can quit again, but it is not easy. As a matter of fact, it has become much more gamey than it was the first time. The first time I didn't know that I could do it. The second, third, fourth, fifth, and sixth... times I knew that I could. It was just a matter of me wanting to I told myself. If you're anything like me, one cigarette will lead to a relapse--not a slip, meaning you're be back where you where within a matter of days. The thousands of cigarettes you'd have to smoke before you quit again won't make it worth it.
My Milage:
My Quit Date: 5/1/2009
Smoke-Free Days: 53
Cigarettes Not Smoked: 1,431
Amount Saved: $536.63
Life Gained:
Days: 5 Hrs: 20 Mins: 58 Seconds: 39
Excellent. breather
