Havent posted in ahwile lost my password,and they kept giving me someone else's..That behind me I always make sure i read what everyone is up to..
Panic Disorder really has ruined my life to so many ways it tears me up..Like a good friend of mine that fights the battle says to think postive..Its hard when the last 5 1/2 years have been hell pretty much..Its like im at a breaking point my family neeeds a stronger man,my friends need there friend back..It feels so impossible but 3 years ago i felt better..Maybe its because than the xanax worked and i really didnt have gErd yetr..Now i must watch what i eat,everything i watch or i get sick,and im scared of everything because i dont want to die..THan i worry about my heart..Meanwhile i feel like **** all the time in a funk its always something how can u think postive when you feel symptoms all day..Meds are a key in my life,but i think i must break down and try so diffrent ones..The thing is when i have tryed its been horrible side effects..I feel i will never get better without medcine,after 5 1/2 years im worn out..I dont want to feel sorry for myself i just want to BE ME...SORRY TO VENT BUT I HAD TOO..
To all the people out there fighting keep it up better days ahead God promises this..
Outlaw
This to shall pass
