Thank you so much, it is good to know that my posting here is helping some people, it certainly helps me.
Yesterday was a little "flatter" than the past few days. It wasnt bad but it wasnt as great feeling as last Wednesday was. Im thinking that I probably felt about the same as I did last Wednesday but since that Wednesday was the first day in over a month that I didnt suffer at least moderate anxiety that it just seemed to feel so much better.
This morning is also kind of flat feeling. I had a couple of the old negative thoughts creep in when I first woke up. My goal now is to sleep until the alarm goes off. I seem to make it until about an hour before it is time to get up. That hour, when it is still dark and I am awake, is the hardest part of the day for me. I put on my relaxation music, but this morning the thoughts were fighting hard to intrude on my peace. I refuse to allow them to take over my quiet times.
Now I am awake (you may have already figured that part out ;)) and the thoughts are gone again. If they pop up now I can easilly shoo them away. I have noticed that it is much easier to dismiss them as just negitive anxiety related inner talk when I am up and active and much harder when I am lying in the dark bedroom in the morning. The silence and darkness tend to give them more life. One day soon, the alarm will be what wakes me...I feel it.
I stopped reading my books...bad move. I will begin reading them again. It is easy to become comfortable when you are feeling good and forget what it was like during the anxious periods. Fortunately, I recognized the early signs this morning and will take immediate action to cut them off. Back to my books.
So it appears I am not quite out of the woods yet. But I know I have the tools to guide me through the forest, I just need to remember to bring them all with me each day. :)
The few anxious thoughts of this morning will be my last today. I'm not going to allow this thing to get it's foot back in my door. I plan on having a good day today and I hope everyone else does too.
Thanks for reading.
Mike
